I am still alive, i am still single…

Hi,

I wasn’t writing here for ages. I was very busy in the last time and actually I lost a bit the sense of this webpage. The page is now over 1 year online… I can count the emails I got on 2 hands. :( So, there is not much feedback. Don’t know why. Maybe I didn’t advertise it enough… or I am not interesting enough. … Don’t know.

The email I got was very different. Some women wrote just “hey cool that you are doing it”… but no reply after my answer. One wrote very nice that she like me and so, but also no reply after my answer.
With one I wrote in the first 2 days a lot of emails and we understood really really good. And she is living in UK, so more or less close. … But after that 2 days there was one answer per week, then 2 weeks, then some when … and now I didn’t heard for almost 2 month nothing from her anymore. I’ve tried to contact her several times… but without answer … why writing more and more? Maybe it is just a “polite way” to say “fuck off”. And it looked really good. We had a lot things in common and I liked the way she is. But what can I do. I can’t to force anybody… even sometimes I wish I could :)

So, I am still single and somehow I still hope that here comes a lady around which thinks “Wou, sounds nice… lets find out more about this guy” and is really interested to have a relationship. I mean I had in this year also dates in real. But it seems like it is a strange world (or should I say strange people) at the moment. Beside the fact that sometimes I didn’t liked her or she didn’t liked me, there was also other reasons why we didn’t ended up in a relationship.

One was so busy with herself that we could meet just once in 2 weeks… and she is living around the corner. Sorry, but if I have a relationship then I want to see my partner as often as we can. Of course is the life not just fun and everybody has to work and doing some stuff. But if I see my partner only once per week (if we live close) then I don’t need a relationship.

Another woman told me straight away that I can’t be her guy because I can’t buy her now a house and afford the lifestyle that she is sitting at home and take care about the home and the children. Well… at least she was very honest. I never told her how much money I have… but actually she was right. And even if I would have this 1 million euro on my bank account… she wouldn’t have been my mate. First of all I don’t want a house and children yet. And second is that I don’t like to have a relationship because of money. Relationship is because of feelings, love and friendship. If money plays a main role in the game then has it nothing to do with it anymore.

Just 2 examples of several. But the most ‘gross’ ones. Sometimes I really ask myself if there are still woman outside somewhere which really want – and can ‘afford’ – to have a serious relationship. Or do I have maybe an old or strange point of view to relationships?

Who knows. Maybe tell me! ;)

Ciao
Gordon

4 thoughts on “I am still alive, i am still single…

  1. I don´t think it is a good idea to look for a girlfriend on the web page I stumbled upon. In fact it is a little bit crazy. You look desperate to find a “true soulmate”. I think perfect true soulmate doesn´t exist (or exists only in romantic films). I think a lot of girls answered to you, but no right “soulmate” for you (according to your answer). Love is a choice. Try to look for somebody who is maybe not perfect but who is good inside. I don´t think you are not interesting enough. Every person is unique in own way. I don´t know you – at least your web page is interesting to catch girl´s attention. You do not find love on the internet. Try to find somebody who will make you laugh when you are sad in real life.

    • Hi Katka,

      thank you for your comment. It’s nice to see that some people find my webpage. Which answers one of your guesses. No, not many woman write me.
      Also you got a wrong impression of this webpage. Neither I look desperate nor for the perfect soulmate. Many people mistaken my intention in this way. I am looking for the right woman, not for the perfect one (it’s a good subject for my next post :) ). It is a big difference. I don’t think that a perfect match would be interesting at all… even that it can be found often. There are always different opinions. The right one is the woman who makes me happy (as you say) and with which I feel so good that I am sure I can stay with her for a long time (hopefully forever).
      I wouldn’t say that you can’t find love in the internet. Of course you can’t find online this feeling… but for sure a woman which is the right one to “activate” this feeling in you… in real life then of course.
      I mean I am not looking here for a virtual or long-distance relationship. But for the first contact is it ok and I can reach woman which I never could reach in my neighborhood. And when both have the feeling it could fit and you meet the person in real then you’ll see if the feelings will come as well.

      And thank you for your compliment ;)

      • I was on the way to apologize to you for my previous comment.
        I didn´t think you answer me so quickly :-D. I wish you will find a good girlfriend. You deserve to be happy. So don´t give up in your trying. I still don´t think the true love can be found on the internet but who knows – maybe I write some blog and I name it as you named it: where is my love too. At least you inspired me :-D although what should I do when I find boyfriend? Then I would have to delete whole web page because of it. Will you delete this web page when you find your true love? I don´t think you will find love on this web because every girl you will write will be later jelaous with whom you were writing all of the e-mails before her.

        • Thank you for your wishes Katka.

          It is not finding the love in the internet. It’s to find the contact to the person with which you can fall in love. The radius in which you can search local is very narrow. The internet is big and wide. More people to reach.

          About your question when I found my girl… yes, as I said on the main page already. When I found her then I will delete this webpage (because then I will not need it anymore)! Or better I will give it to the next single guy.
          Well, will you be jealous on every girl with whom your new boyfriend has been spoken in his live? Or maybe he made an advertisement in the newspaper or in a single community, to find contact to single women. Will you be jealous on every answer which he got? Sorry, but this argument is flawed.
          And if she is jealous about it… then she is not my soulmate.